I was reading this fabulous blog entry called Lifestyle Bloggers Are Useless by the lovely Helga when my muse suddenly slapped me with an inspiration.
“Oddis, I should write about this,” I said, my eyes were still scanning the list of suggestions on the last part of Helga’s entry.
“What’s this?” Odd said, slightly annoyed as I had somehow distracted him from what he was watching on Netflix.
“I’m reading this hilarious post and I’m planning to write an entry based on her list of suggestions. Like this one here about how to take care of one’s vagina,” I said while giggling like a teenage girl.
“You don’t have a vagina,” he said drily and resumed to what he was watching. I bet it’s a documentary of some World War II stuff.
I rolled my eyes and started to write this entry.
Growing up surrounded by girls without an iota of a father figure resulted in the fabulous nascency of my imaginary vagina.
I speak estrogen and as a gay man it created certain assumptions in my old country where being gay and transgender are one and the same. When I came out, my mother automatically expected that I would be getting a boob job, dress as woman and work in a beauty salon. The whole shebang I tell you. I didn’t blame her for being ignorant like most of the population there. Still, it’s taxing to constantly explain that I’m a cisgender gay man.
At first, I loathed it since it entailed the disappointment from my mother and then my father when I met him for the first time by the age of 14. I was deemed a failure and was always compared to the other boys my age.
There’s nothing wrong in being in touch with your feminine side. I find it frustrating that society in general view femininity as a sign of weakness when in fact it has strengths devoid in masculinity.
Taking care of my imaginary vagina was to embrace it. An amalgamation of two polar opposites complementing each other. In turn, it enriched my life by opening my senses and perspective to a whole another level.
Lastly, it was a lesson of acceptance. Accepting oneself leads to the road of emancipation.